STICKY - HUMID

It's one twenty a.m. and I can't sleep. My brain is going 100 mph and my body is so uncomfortable I want to climb out of my skin. Friday was my 29th birthday.... the night was fun and all.... then reality came back today......

This summer has been cool, being back in NY and shit.... but I want it to be over now. I want to come home to SF and get on with my life. One thing holding be back is Kevin. He is jobless and taking care of our dog.... so I have been sending him money.... and it's keeping me from getting anything put away.

I really need Kevin not to get evicted from the apartment because I don't want to think about where he'd go or what'd happen to Padme. Also, all my belongings are there and I don't want to lose what little I have.

Guess I'm just being a bitch tonight because of the heat and all..... just can't wait for life to be normal again.

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'Aloow True believers!!!

Thinking about all the lovely people I am not able to spend my birthday with. At 5:34 am this morning (the 27th) I will be a big boy of 29!! I am going to working all day and spending the evening with my Mom and Dad.... But I will be remembering my past 3 birthday dinners at the Snausage factory with Kevin and Jen and Josh.

Babies, I miss and love you!!!!!

Today I banged out of work for no reason and drove to New Paltz for comic books.... then I headed over to the mall to kill time. Walked around the new Target and realized I have few wants in this world other than my comics and my desire to return to San Francisco.
I so deeply miss nights at the Mint. Walks through Deloris Park. Corona Hights..... There is so much.
I want pure and simple happiness with my friends......
Jen
Josh
Kevin
Rene
Jessica and Lydia....
I am always going to have a huge void in my heart when we are apart.

I am going to slug back a few glasses of wine, cop a feel and bust a nut before bed.....
Tomorrow.... 29.

Things keep moving along.
Working at Cellular one.... doing customer service work for a cell company, and it's not fun at all. 9 hour shifts that are made up of call after call of angry people. I get yelled at a lot and argue a lot. It drains the soul.
Living here ain't all bad....
Went and saw Nickel Creek Last week. That was cool.

Hey Fuckers and Lovers!!!!!
Just like Jesus, somethings are just ment to come back from the dead. Like this Blog. Recent events have made me think long and hard about my decision to put this space to rest and it's just not feeling right anymore. The past can't be changed and it sure as fuck shouldn't be ignored.
The past posts chronicle a particularly hard and painful period for me..... lots of gloom, doom and narcotic induced freakouts (go back and read some..... it's pretty insane!)...... but to be honest, it's honest.... and it does a good job of showing how I got from there to here.

Here is New York.
I am free of drugs, healty and pretty much back on the right path.
Working.... making money..... reading..... keeping my cock in my pants or hand and avoiding drama and foolish fools who would like nothing more than to fool me.

The time away from my life in San Fran has given me a real solid place to stand and view the miles I've walked the past few years.... I can look back and see where I fell and look forward at where I am going with less baggage..... Lessons have been learned.

The plan is to get back to SF within the next 2 months..... get my hot little ass back in school and study to become a massage therapist.

I am going to be 29 years old this Friday and for the first time in a while I am ready to get on with my life and make it something better than I deserve.

WHAT IS ERIC DIGGING ON THIS SUMMER??

-The DaVinci Code (book)
-Mutual Admiration Society (CD )
-Nip/Tuck (TV)
-Driving and belting Rufus Wainwright songs
-Spider-man 2
-White Wine
-The Gilmore Girls Season One DVD
-Hanging with my parents (who'd have known??)
-My niece Lilly
-Sarah, the best friend I've ever had
-Sarah's Snatch Slapper....( a drink.... 1 part Peach Pucker, 1 part Stoli Raspberry and 1 part tonic)