Thinking about Sarah.
My Best Friend.

She called me the other day to let me know how much she loves me. She worries about me. It's as if she has a 6th sense as to my moods and needs. The conversation was brief, but she informed me that she's scared that I'm not in a good place. With the Kevin unemployment, working two jobs and having no money..... she is worried that I'm going to do something stupid (How did she know how I eyeball the bay bridge?!?!)....... her man, Zane, told her to let me know that he has a spare bedroom in his house that I am welcome to live in. They think I should go back to NY despite my dislike for the area..... because when it all comes down to it, I am a healthy, happier person there.

I don't know what to make of the offer. I think about it..... seriously. But I can't seem to let go of the hope that everything will turn out ok here.... despite the fact that I am in ruins. There is no money.... I haven't eaten in 2 days... the landlord is going to evict me.....

Sometimes....... sometimes I want to give up. But Superheros never give up!

Still watching Buffy DVDs.
Reading Truman Capote books.
Listening to Chris Thile.
Wishing it'd just turn around.
Losing hope.

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